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Death embrace me in your loving arms Send me away, along with your daughters and sons. Love me more than anything ever did in this world. And I shall utilise the devil inside of myself. For, this is what I need, what I deserve. What I need to purify myself. For the sins that I have committed. For the love I have indulged in. For the guilt and paranoia I have experienced. I find myself inside this bubble of mixed feelings And I find myself pondering as to the meaning of existence. One side of the coin for love, the other for truth I chose love and now we play truce. Trump card, I have lost this bet to last throughout time. So now truth is l

I wonder whether my direction in life is any better than the one I have in my mind. I wonder whether love is the catalyst that clouds the destiny of time. I wonder... I feel really depressed for some unknown reason. I need some form of social cohesion. I find it hard to voice my thoughts; my inner Pisces mindset can explain more. The voice in my head screams for the suffering of Lore. I get paranoid all the god damn time. Smallest things can surround my mind. For days and days, escapism till the end of my life... But not a phase remains... I can't take this excruciating, aching pain. The first time was more than a game. The second t

May death embrace every one of us in his icy cold arms. May the angels suck the very souls out of our lungs. May the demons cackle at us gawking with their red, hot tongues. May we be cast into the depths of Hell with our spouses, daughters and sons. May we pay for our confusion of life. May we pay for thinking what we were doing is right. May we pay for our misconceptions of what we deemed to be our light. May we burn in Hell for confirming what He already preordained. May God bestow upon us His hate for enjoying our lives. May we be punished for not abiding by God’s given rights. May we be cast away for not obeying the Divine. May

Sleep has become a distant memory in the back of my mind And yet alcohol is still a big consumption for every mistake made in time. Not long ago was I a desperate fool in love. And at that time I believed everything could be solved with kisses and hugs. But now I seem to have that same feeling a lot more often And now what love truly is I may have forgotten. Escapism on my mind constantly throughout the day Alcohol a beverage I consume until my mind goes into a haze. Is this how I’m going to spend the rest of my boring life? Or maybe love can finally grant me a husband or a wife. Surround myself with friends and family to not think abo

This aching pain Surrounds me again The memories transport me to the distant planes All because of a lost friendship The depression is so difficult to leave now because of a close friend who no longer speaks a sound she was once a love, then simply a friend now we are nothing as the depression continues to bend. Alcohol by my side, a life I'm still trying to find A road I'm continuing down of nothing but wasteful time. What's the point of living anymore... I've lost my light as she is lost like a kite being released into the sky. A light once bright, has now left my side. And I'm left in this void of eternal darkness As the demon

WHY WHY CAN I NOT STOP CARING I just can't stop with this awkward staring Even after everything we've been through together She stabs me in the back and sends me to another dimension. Inside of me I feel so damn confused The only thing occurring in my mind is booze To help me from this everlasting depression While trying to drag out of her a simple confession, Telling me why she keeps on hurting me And yet I have to keep talking because she holds the key. To my heart, and all my hopes and fragile dreams. A simple child that acts and smiles as bright as a sun beam That's what she is and I am in love with her Even after all the things

If a god does exist, then I curse him with all my might, for giving us the power to love, to elevate us like a kite, only to crash us down to earth, and open our eyes to this harsh reality, to bring us so much emotional despair, to drive us to the brink of self fatality. What god, what have we done to deserve so much pain? People worship you every single day, and yet you still just sweep us away. Or maybe death indeed is a blessing, and this is hell and maybe that is why my head constantly aches as loud as the sounds of a church bell. The aches and pains make me contemplate, why does the world consist of so much hate? Why can't love be

Moving on is like giving up a bad habit, Now all of my hopes and dreams are locked inside of a cabinet. Rest for a moment, stop thinking, the love of my life fades away within seconds of blinking. The memories of the times play backwards and forwards constantly in my mind, I can't move on and forget no matter what distractions occur in my life. Drinking can't help, and neither can time, The only cure is music that recognises the pain in my life. Forcing a smile whenever I'm with people, In order to not spread this contagious fever, I see her, and I talk to her every single day, Always helping her when she's always feeling grey. We us